Sweet Intoxication of Brandy.

Wednesday, September 24, 2008

after so long @ 10:23 PM

Its my 3rd week at work already, and training is ending. It has been three rather boring but slack weeks. After training ends this week, it will be time to welcome work and more work despite how much i don't want it. So i will be counting down the days and hours.

In the meantime coming this Friday, every group will be given an opportunity to present what have we learnt for the past weeks. Hopefully there will be plenty of laughter and joy around to share. I am sabo-ed to be the emcee with another colleague. I hope come that day i will find it more fun than a chore, though it is the opposite now considering that we need to prepare a draft of what we are going to say and do. I mean come on, i don't even prepare my presentation in school when it is graded. crap....

I am watching prison break season four. Suddenly i just had this thought in my mind, whats the price for salvation. And when i put that on my nick, one guy said i think someone already did that for you. I have some sort of an idea what is he referring to and i find it a little funny. Not in any offensive way but i just keep thinking why didn't i feel saved.

I think there is a price to everything, i haven't found it yet. Or maybe someone really did pick up the bill for me, just that i haven't leave table or ask the waiter.

During lunch time, some of us were on the topic of childhood, about all the games and things we do when we were young, and they seems so far away. All of us seems so happy and cheerful talking about it. But after the laughter end, it is a silence that followed. Maybe we all realise its a time that should no longer be called our. And perhaps rightfully so, we are working adults, and childhood seems like a forgotten term that happened many years back.

If only 2046 (you have to watch the show to understand) exists, i will love to bunk in there once in a while. Maybe it will be the place that never change for me too.

Thursday, September 04, 2008

In the dark @ 11:53 PM

I am blogging in my dark dark room. See how my story unfold in the dark.

But will you see it that way then?

I am still breathless but that is old news. I do not know when i will be up and running (literally) and that is old news again. I just did my company medical checkup. I should be starting work next week, then again nobody is for sure. The doctor didn't say i can or i can't actually. If he say yes, its useless if my company say no, even if the company say yes, i wonder what my body will say to it. One of those things that is still in the dark. Perhaps i will ring up the HR of my company come few hrs later, to seek some form of clarification. Though i will not be surprised if they are as clueless as i am. But my good guess is i will be told to report to work come Monday. But that is all it is, just a guess.

A little sad that my extended holiday has to come to an end soon, but i guess its a matter of sooner or later. I am quite lucky it is longer than some others. To think that my prolonged holiday is given by a sickness, going to work must mean something good after all.

There is 2 sides to a coin. But i believe there is more. And many a time you and i will not know what are those sides till its too late.

Toss a coin. Maybe you will find more than heads or tails