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Monday, September 25, 2006
shrinking circle shrinking world @ 4:06 AM
I am really getting old. You can tell that is true when you see my cousins getting married one by one. I have got another cousin getting married tomorrow. Those who got married a few years back, already have bundle of joys that run around the place.
To confess, I was pretty surprised when one of my cousins brought his babies to my grandmother’s birthday weeks back. I was so detached from the family that I do not know that he got a child. To add salt to injury, another cousin’s wife does not recognize me when I see her on the street.
I think it is increasingly becoming a common for everyone. Everyone seems preoccupied in their small circle that we are neglecting distant relatives and friends. I am worried that my small circle will shrink even more as I grow older. Time and spaces are increasingly filled with assignment, work, projects and dateline (DEAD-line T_T). They do not add any value to my life. But I am increasingly drawn to the valley of no return. Work hard so you can get money to pay for the big car, big house or the luxurious holiday you always wanted. Finally when you got the money, you will even busier, trying to make that car, that house, the holiday better.
What are you searching in life?
Search for: Wealth? A legacy? A name in history? Or maybe just a little happiness?
Life could be different. It could be much simpler than what we are doing.
Thursday, September 21, 2006
September fool @ 9:15 PM
The mid term break is drawing closer. As usual it is occupied with assignments, projects, and a shit load of others. To add to the crap, I am going broke. Not only is my hall dinner and dance in this month, there are just too many September babies. Think adults should have less fun during holiday season, or at least do some extra precaution. Too much money spent on non personal stuff. Actually it is sad to think that why I spend so much money on others when I do not get even a happy birthday when it is my birthday. It is just immaterial what I did. But of course, I am always the fool who will be forgotten.
Answer me truthfully.
Do you even remember when my birthday is?
Wednesday, September 06, 2006
Sad poet @ 8:46 PM
Been almost a month since i last wrote something. Actually, I do not know how to start this entry but i am feeling down so might as well do some blogging, since that is my usual practice anyway.
I was really busy for the past few weeks. Busy with JCRC stuff as well as homework. I just did round island supper, find members for the new JCRC committee, try to request for an addition post in JCRC, do rallying, helped in inter wing games, did presentations, and the many assignments. I am beated, tired and demoralized. But i can't blame anyone but myself, as i chose to run for JCRC, i chose my modules (some). I chose to make all the wrong choices that people will not appreciate. Or maybe because it is me, thats why it is unappreciated.
Was talking to my friend few days ago and he was commenting that i should perhaps compile the poems i compose into a book. I thought of that before, but i do not possess that kind of perserverance to accomplish that feat. Not to mention i only write poems when i am sad so it will be a foolish thing to actually write down all poems that i wrote and be reminded of sad incidents. But i do confess that i really like some of the poems i wrote. Like the one below. i kind of like it.
So if i start getting poetic or you see poems on my msn nick, it means that i am unhappy. But i guess nobody cares how i feel anyway. Screw brandon. wahaha..
In your eyes i see a nonchalant cold,
trying to drag n drown me into the abyss below.
Every single word n hold,
break n crush me like a mere clay mould.
Say it in caps and bold..
Brush aside my hapless soul...
